Monday, December 27, 2010

Success!!

Just wanted to let you loyal blog-readers know that I finally unlocked the two cups in Mariokart!!!

YESS!!! This means I've unlocked all races for all classes of speed! Yes yes yes!!!


I don't know why I threw this in here... It's creepy and has no relevance. Yay for YouTube!

Hey Hey Hey

Well I don't really know what I should write about but I feel like I should write about something, ya know?

I'm not doing my Italy post until I get back home.. The internet here is crappy and when I try to upload photos anywhere it just... doesn't work. Except to Facebook. I can upload to Facebook. WTF, world? Why only Facebook?

Anyways, I've been doing a lot of reading lately. I got a Kindle for Christmas, so yeah you know. Right now I'm reading Angela's Ashes... I already talked about that in an earlier post. Yada yada. It's a really truly amazing book. I'm almost halfway through it and when I'm reading it, you have to do everything in your power to gt me away from it. But while we're on the subject of reading, I think everyone should read this article. It's about the stereotype that bisexuality isn't actually a sexual orientation. I read it and I think it's fabuloso.

SUPERAWESOMECOOL ARTICLE

So yeah, that. Amazing. True. I hate when people say "you're either gay or you're straight and there's no in between... if you consider yourself bi it's just a fad or a phase and you'll get over it." That's stupid and ignorant and quite frankly, offensive. I've had close family members say that, to my face. Of course, I'm not out to them because I don't want to take the teasing but whatever. If they haven't figured it out already that I like boys and girls they're stupid because I'm purposefully dropping hints left and right with everyone I know.

Woah. I just got really lightheaded and felt like I was falling. It's still happening. But I figure I'll write/type my way through it.

On another subject, I've also been playing a lot of Mario Kart lately. I LOVE MARIOKART. Just throwing that out there. But I'm trying to unlock two cups for the 150cc and I CAN'T. And it's killing me and it's frustrating as hell. But I'll keep playing until the day I die... Or my DS stops working.

Last subject: Musica. Oh wow wow. I love music. Duh. Music is about the best thing that ever happened to me. So I thought I'd recommend a few songs today because.. Well I don't know, you should just all enjoy their greatness.

Up Past the Nursery -- Suuns
Angela Surf City -- The Walkmen
Bold With Fire (French Quarter) -- Andrew Jackson Jihad
Yulia -- Wolf Parade
World Sick -- Broken Social Scene
Par avion -- FM Belfast
Solitude is Bliss -- Tame Impala
Collector -- Here We Go Magic

Alright that's enough for today. Read, play, listen, enjoy.

-Ayden

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Maybe I'm LookBook Stupid

LookBook might have been the coolest, meanest and stupidest thing ever.

I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I post looks and I wait, wait, wait. Do I have to do that begging thing where I go on other peoples page's and comment and ask them to look at mine? I don't know. That just sounds annoying to me. 

Anyways, I guess I'll do a little shameless self-promotion. This is my favorite look of mine. Click it, hype it. Do whatever. I don't care. I just don't want to be INVISIBLE. Tomorrow (or later today) I'll try getting all dressed up and taking some photos. At least the background will be pretty. Oh, Italia.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Neglected

Eh. Yeah. Sorry 'bout that. I really didn't mean to not post for that long. I've been kinda busy and even though blogging had been on my mind that entire time I never actually got around to it.

Well, here I am. I'm in Italy- and it's wonderful. I mean, literally, I never could've imagined how much I love it here. I wish Rachael was here with me. Would make Italy perfect! But anyways, my Italian adventure is for another post... It will be a long one, that I promise.

Tonight is Christmas Eve, tomorrow is Christmas (obviously). It's windy as hell here and all I keep hearing (other than my music) is the sound of the big palm tree outside of the window of the room I'm in cracking and rustling in the wind.

Other than being in Italy and having a great time soaking up a completely different culture, it's been a rough few days/weeks. I'm confused about a lot of things and even though I'm on vacation I can't get any of them off my mind for a period of time. I even dream about the things I'm stressed about in such vivid ways that I wake up and all day the reminder of what my dream was about echoes  and doesn't let me forget. I'm in Italy, I'm away from school and chores and... I just want to relax. But it's like if I forget, even for a moment, I remember and it all comes back and affects me ten fold. I don't know what to do. I'm enjoying Italy fully. But I just wish I had some confidence in what is going on with my life, instead of all this insecurity and doubt.

Gah. I don't even know what I'm saying. I do. Whatever.

So, this is a short and to-the-point post, I think I'll do my fully-fleshed Italian post tomorrow, that way I can include Christmas and all that fun stuff. But I guess I can leave you with one picture (God knows I've got enough of them).

Goodnight loves, hopefully you will sleep better than I know I will tonight.

-Ayden

*PS: forget about the photo, I can't get one to upload right now && I'm feeling a tad bit impatient*

Stranded - The Walkmen

Sunday, December 19, 2010

It is a fact...

I'm writing this from my kindle. Gotta love technology today!

So I'm currently reading Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt. Its wonderful. Makes me cry.

Okay kindle writing is kind of a pain in the arse so I will quit.

Leaving for Italia tomorrow!!!

-Ayden

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Shut Your Eyes (and think of me)


"Shut Your Eyes" by Ayden Molly on LOOKBOOK.nu

If it Kills Me

I broke free on a Saturday morning
I put the pedal to the floor
headed north on mills avenue
and listened to the engine roar

my broken house behind me
and good things ahead
a girl named Cathy
wants a little of my time
six cylinders underneath the hood
crashing and kicking
aha!
listen to the engine whine

i am going to make it through this year
if it kills me
i am going to make it though this year
if it kills me

i played video games in a drunken haze
i was seventeen years young
hurt my knuckles punching the machines
the taste of scotch rich on my tongue

and then Cathy showed up
and we hung out
trading swigs from a bottle
all bitter and clean
locking eyes
holding hands
twin high maintenance machines

i am going to make it through this year
if it kills me
i am going to make it though this year
if it kills me

i drove home in the California dusk
i could feel the alcohol inside of me hum
pictured the look on my stepfather's face
ready for the bad things to come
i down shifted
as i pulled into the driveway
the motor screaming out
stuck in second gear
the scene ends badly
as you might imagine
in a cavalcade of anger and fear

there will be feasting and dancing
in Jerusalem next year

i am going to make it through this year
if it kills me
i am going to make it though this year
if it kills me



[Rachael- If you learn it on guitar, I'll learn the piano part. And we can record it]